Ugh why does life have to be so frustrating. The more that I realize that my friends would rather hang out with their girl friends rather than going to hang out with me MAYBE once a fucking month makes me call my friends into question. I've been in a super shitty mood for such a long time because my friends would rather get pussy than hang out am I really that bad of a friend? It's come to the point of giving up I hate this because I'd like to spend time with my friends but they don't hurray my senior year is badass my friends don't want to chill with me the ladies have just been playing fucking games with me people at work have already started to talk shit about how I'm doing something or just being a dick in general... wow am I really that bad of a person?!?! Shit here in high school I was going to make an honest effort to be nice to people and this is what I get in return a shit ton of people who like to make my life shit. And w00t I've got 8 more months of all this before I finally move the fuck out of San Diego and go to college. There is nothing left for me in San Diego but Jessica, Tom, and Jesse thats it. How fucking pathetic (not that i dont enjoy those people because i really do) I just wish there was more for me to leave behind other than 3 people who wont ditch me for their bitches or for alcohol. I guess thats all for now = /

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Mastadon *old*